I have been working on redesigning/updating this blog and I have been wandering into some difficulties. The first being that it turns out that you can’t use color unless you you styles and you need to be paying Premium in order to use styles. (I don’t have premium.) So now I have an alert at the top of the page telling me to update. (Which I will do eventually, but I currently can’t afford to pay the annual fee.)
While struggling with the new theme I lost my comments section and had to figure out how to add it back. The same happened for my likes button and I haven’t figured out how to add the social media button. On the blog page, for some reason I can’t get the subject titles to be big enough, even though I adjusted the size for them to be bigger. (I tried to look for a way to do it, but no dice.)
The past few months have involved being mostly to anxious to write or do much of anything while rushing around trying to get everything together for various services that I use. (Housing, Social Security, and I’m attempting to apply for nutrition assistance because I really don’t have/make enough money to be able to afford groceries. The problem is that applying for nutrition assistance is needlessly hard to navigate and I was provided with insufficient assistance in getting it done this year because of the lackluster benefits specialist at the general services clinic I was going to. (I have a number of clinics I go to. One for general/mental health assistance, one for autism, and then we have my pcp.)
In addition to getting prepared/renewing my social security, housing and so on, I also have to reply for the payment plan I was using for my student loans. (Theoretically I also have to figure out how to get into my FAFSA account when I don’t remember my security questions and they don’t have my current email address.) This has been understandably, super stressful in addition to everything else.
Writing Things I Need to Do:
- I need to add all of my meta and review posts to their respective pages.
- I need to *stop* fussing with everything because I’m just going drive myself batshit.
- I need to upgrade my account (at the beginning of October)
- I need to read my galleys and write book reviews for them (then schedule them.)
- I may or may not start a “memoirable” category.
- I need to work on my original fic/fan fic. (As one does.)
Other Things I Need to Do:
- I. Need. To. Finally. Makes spreadsheets to keep track of finances. (Which I started to do, but I accidentally deleted everything while fighting with my Windblows One Drive, which kept trying to synch even though there was no room for anything to synch TO.)
- I need to see how transfer from (clinic) to (other clinic) is going.
- I need to do the “homework” my therapist gave me. (I need to find guided breathing/relaxation exercises that don’t make me feral with rage. Which guided breathing/relaxation exercises tend to do. I may just go with ASMR vids…though that has its own Problems.)
- I need to reschedule chiro appointments I put off because of the entire “everything is being renewed and I am full of anxiety.)
Things I Feel I’m Making Progress On:
- I have an ongoing problem with keeping up with chores/developing chorelike habits. This is a combination of executive dysfunction and “I get used to stuff being out and that ends up being where [thing] live now I guess!” I am getting slightly better at chores, but I have to “threaten” myself. (I have weaponized my anxiety. This is not actually ideal.)
- I have made some inroads on being social though where I am social is an online mobile game. I currently have an alliance “job” of setting out alliance resource buildings. (And generally nagging people to do stuff they don’t do because I suspect they are more intensely introverted than I am.)
- I have made So Much Soup. (Split Pea/Lentil)
- I have also made flatbread and will probably make more.
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